People say that ‘only thing constant in this world is change; it’s inevitable’. It’s so bloody true. But that does not make me less afraid of it you know. This weekend I felt like I just left college. When I graduated, I didn’t feel this way. But this time I did. A bunch of my good friends graduated and most got jobs. Two of them is moving to Wachington DC. Granted it would be great when I go thru DC, but it still sux that they won’t be 20 minutes away. Another just went to Seatle for an internship, and one went home for the summer. Not to mention that another is going to San Diago soon from the looks of it. The four of us who are still here thru summer might not be here thru fall. One goes to work with Google in August. And the other one is looking for jobs in the Bay Area also.
It’s kinda crazy you know. Having all your friends spread out like this. Granted that there is still one of my friends who is going to be in Atlanta next year. But he has a girl-friend, so you know, I can’t always spend time with him. Life’s changing. I’d need something else to take my time. I’d need someone else to keep me busy. I’ll need someone else to go clubbing with. I’ll need some company.
My life is turning a bit uncertain as it moves on. I’m going home this August and I’m desparately hoping that I come back and things just won’t go crazy. I know that I would be depressed for a good long time. I’m going home after four years. Even that is a scary thing you know. Things changed in four years and I won’t even have time to let it sink in completely. I’m going only for 2 weeks. I’m going all the way across the world for two freaking weeks. of which 4 days would be just travel time.
May be I just need a girl friend. It’s just that I can’t really find one, well, not that I am looking. Anyway, I think I’ve bitched and moaned enough. I wasn’t planning on posts like this in the new chapter of Bid Chronicles, but this just had to be done. Take care everyone and live happy.
It’s ok to feel like that, though… It is rough when life changes so drastically… Just remember that finding someone else (e.g. a girlfriend) is not always the answer — although I am sure it would probably help to combat the feelings of loneliness sometimes… Best of luck at feeling better!
What are you talking about? Using relationships as a defence mechanism is a great idea! *grin* Nah, just kidding. Follow the lady’s advice Saud… you’ll find someone great I know..but let it be for it’s own sake. I have come to the conclusion that perhaps even loneliness initself is not good enough motivator for a GF. It seems (and it sucks I know) that the real good stuff (which I presume you and I and a lot of people are looking for) comes only out of the blue and for no other reason other than for it’s own sake. There.. Thats the best I could articulate that. hehehe..
Other than that man, things will look up. Don’t worry too much about the future. The future has a way of sorting itself out. You are a very smart and warm guy… Just do your thing, work hard and shit will fall in place.
Enough for now…Gotta head to bed.
From DC,
Arjun
you don’t need a girlfriend. what you need are some “2a”s.
J/K
I know how you feel. I’m alone in Seattle with no friend or family member. I made some new friends at work, but they’re just not the same as you guys. That’s why I hang around in Arjunweb so often.
Once in a while, it’s good to be separated from my friends and family. It quickly rejuvenates my feelings that friends and family should not be taken for granted.